Ps. 46:10 Be still, and Know that I am God (or as my version states stop striving)
Is. 40:31 Yet those who wait on the Lord will regain new strength.
Well.... its been 2 years since I began this journey, it actually doesn't seem that long but its effects are becoming evident! I put on hold ministry, for fear I would just have to leave in the middle of something. I have put on hold having relationships with new people to meet or even old friends I have loved! I gave away one of my first loves- my guitar, because I was sure I would be leaving any minute and I had to be ready! Put my kids in home school that they totally despise because in a moments notice we may have to board a plane and I would have their schooling in control. I have left our family home to move in with my parents, to save money and to again- be ready!
My heart is heavy today and I am lonely. I haven't posted in awhile because I was feeling like I had missed God, or heard Him wrong. I very unsure of myself. But don't you know that is exactly where God wants us? Being sure of ME is never good, but being sure of God... now that's the ticket!
I still have no answers of when I am leaving on this grand adventure or how, but I have learned that God is still God and He will never change. As I trust in Him, He is remaining faithful and opening doors and showing himself everyday. Really that's all I need while I am still and I wait!