God's in the "stuff"

The best time to learn is when you are not looking! For instance- your walking along and you become distracted by a buzzing bee and as you shoo it away you don't notice the trail drops off thousands of feet down to the raging river full of razor sharp rocks and alligators snapping from hunger!!!! (pant, pant) You have learned to pay attention to where you are going, THE HARD WAY!!

Such is the way with the Lord! God bless Him!! (can we say that?) I am sooo stubborn that many times I cannot simply take a gentle nudge to go the right way, but a cast iron skillet to the head works!!

This last year has been a time of discovery, sorrow, and jubilation. And of course waiting! I believe God has wanted to teach me some facts of life for some time but I would never listen. So now when the rubber meets the road and I am about to embark on hard turf, He is preparing me quicker than I'm really ready for... I think!

Then there is mercy, a great gift! Because God is merciful, He gives me little encouragements all along the way! If I were in His shoes, I would have been so frustrated with me that I would have thrown me down that embankment to the raging river with the rocks and gators!!! But He doesn't! And because He is Mercy, I actually learn. I learn because I am amazed that He would entrust me again with the same lessons over and over, knowing I may fail! It hurts my heart to know, I fail Him sometimes! Him, whom I love and want to please so much! Him, who gave up His own life for mine because He knew I needed to learn these things. Him, who in an instant could change anything and everything, if He wanted to!

I realize that none of this makes much sense to anyone right now because I have left out specifics. But I will say this: 1. A relationship between a father and his daughter is a delicate balance when she becomes an adult. 2. A relationship between a single mom and Her God is a fortress of protection and surety. 3. A family is precious and must be preserved, sometimes it may require moving to another country to regroup!! :)