Shipwrecked, Imprisoned...Paul is that you?

I was praying today, and I began to understand a little something about waiting! The Lord showed me a glimpse into what Paul might have been feeling way back in 33ad. To know the plans the Lord has for you but stuck waiting on.... what? It can seem like such a waste of time. There are so many important places to go, people to see!! Come on God! You can't possibly want me to rot here in prison, or die in a shipwreck? What is going on? Why the delay?

Boy, Paul sure had a way better attitude than I would've had - or have today. It seems that the more excited I get about my trip to the great beyond, the more it feels like I am climbing uphill.

I have to take my ex-husband to court to get permission to take the kids for 2 years out of the country. He was appearing to be somewhat agreeable when I offered to make his life a little easier by stopping all child support arrears. And even to stop all future child support charges. But he is adamant now about not letting them go. I am truly sad! Just like a stop over in jail, like Paul? Well I may not be preaching about God against the law, but I do feel like this can't possibly be part of the plan! Or is it??

So many times there are little lessons that we need to learn, but so often we are consumed with the wasted time, we don't learn anything! Oh, Lord! Help my lack of faith, help me see what You are showing me, and above all God I need mercy! I am no Paul, you know!!!