Trials...ugh!

On the road to the promised land, the Israelites encountered every day stuff. Such as bickering children, deciding what to do with extra clutter, whose turn to do the dishes, laundry... and so on! Keeping you eye on the goal or the prize IS the trial. Going to war, the battle isn't the hard part- you are trained for that, what to shoot and at who. The hard part is keeping everyone on the same road as you are traveling there. (Are we there yet? I have to go to the bathroom! He's looking at me!!) UGH!!

Today my ex-husband and I met with a court appointed mediator. I knew what to say, as coached by my attorney, I knew how to make my view heard appropriately, but now the trial begins. The mediator wants to speak to the children. My Faith and Isaiah (13 and 11) are not extremely excited about this 2 year disturbance to their very important jr. hi. career! Needless to say, I am not quite sure how they will respond to this stranger, the mediator. (i imagine Arnold saying it- THE MEDIATAR)

My happy go-lucky, glass half full side thinks- God is full of miracles and likes the odds extremely against Himself to really show His glory in the final inning. But the doom- gloom, glass half empty, cracked and leaking badly thinks- oh no, I have missed God and now He's hiding far away from me!

What's really awesome regardless of my dual personality is that God stays ALWAYS CONSTANT!!! He will never be afraid, or confused about anything that appears that way to me. Oh Lord, I love that about you!!!

I can honestly say today, I have no idea whats gonna happen next! But I know who does know! That's whats most important!!